10.01.2010

The 5-Day Practice Week Blues

Something's gotta give.

I have been a diligent 6-practices-per-week yogini for quite a while now, about two years running with few interruptions in the cycle. I practice when I'm sick, I tug my mat along when I travel, and sometimes I eat spoonfuls of peanut butter for breakfast and/or lunch because when time allows for either a meal or yoga, I choose yoga. But lately, the schedule is so awkward that some days there is definitively not enough time in the day for my asana practice while allowing for enough sleep to survive. With teaching, school, and the night job I don't get to practice on Mondays or Wednesdays and it's driving me crazy.

At first, you might think an extra rest day might be helpful -- but these aren't rest days... they are marathons of academic tedium shackled in shoes, hunched in poorly designed chairs, followed by hours of the repetitious and horrifyingly asymmetrical work that is food service. I don't mean to complain. I know there are people who go to school full time and work three jobs and stay fit and maintain relationships and do it all happily, but I could never be among them. I need my quiet time. The thing of it is, I actually enjoy school but my school days this semester are very long, and all the chair sitting does a number on my hips. I'm having difficulty focusing on my classes this semester as I'm compelled to pour all of my energy into my practice and teaching, but the extended hours of class time and the alternating day/night schedule don't allow for it. I can't be at peace with the conflict of my priorities versus my energies. It isn't fair to myself and it isn't fair to my students.

I've given it a lot of thought, and I'm going to do something about it. I am going to make the time for my practice, study, and teaching. I'll shuffle some things around, do whatever I need to do, because this isn't working for me. Through the practice of yoga, I've gotten a little better at recognizing when to accept circumstances for what they are, to sit in my discomfort, and when to take action and adjust my position. This time I'm taking action.

3 comments:

  1. One day it will all be worth it. Please don't kill yourself making it all work though. We can only push through so much before the body demands rest.

    Love xo

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  2. Thanks, Michelle. It's just a rough patch. I don't intend to keep this up. I'm going to try to shave back my other responsibilities so that I can align my life with my priorities. Must honor the heart from time to time.

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  3. One of the most difficult things apart from doing your taxes that comes up when you first start to teach yoga is finding enough time for your own practice. I struggled with this for years especially when I first started teaching and was a full time paralegal as well. They never tell you about that in YTT!

    Eventually though it does all come together. As you say, honor your heart and you will find the answer.

    Thank you for your kind headache related comments on my blog.

    love and oms

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