"All conditioned things are impermanent.
Everything that deteriorates is suffering.
Nirvana is peace.
All things are selfless and open."
|(image source : Tibetan emblem of impermanence. Also, what I feel like when I practice in a heated room)|
This might have been a Primary Friday post, but today being Sunday, I think we've already missed that train. May has been a far busier month than I would like. This is day twelve of a 14-day stretch of solid work, and I am very much ready for an entire day off.
This busyness has me slipping from creative mode into drone mode. From open-minded exploration into high-efficiency, auto-pilot practice. My memory is suffering. My output is low. I am trying not to be too bothered with the shift, to see it as merely the change of the winds. I like to think that to acknowledge the temporary nature of my mood is to heighten its temporariness. If I see its impermanence, will it leave me?
I have been practicing hard and teaching a lot. After spending last week in hot, sweaty evening mysore, this morning's early practice at home felt stiff and slow, despite the oil bath last night. Had to do Kapo twice, but after a mid-foot grasp on the first half-hearted try, the second round was deep and strong -- so deep, in fact, that my body wished to heave and weep, but I did not.
Eka Pada was laborious and especially stiff on the left side. More trembling. I can see why so many are attached to heated practice, or evening practice, or both. The LBH postures were no problem in that environment, but the heat in the mysore room, though relatively low at about 85 degrees, did give me headaches for the first couple of days. I had great practices, but walked out of that room looking like an overripe tomato every time. I come from stout, northerly, hot-blooded people. Farmers and soldiers. Scots and Germans, mostly. The heat does not agree with me.
So what am I doing in Texas? I'm not sure, but it called me here and I can't seem to leave. Not yet.
Speaking of Texas heat, summer looms ahead. Six months of high temps and high humidity has already begun. Another shift. I must adjust myself accordingly.