Oh, and Asanas of the Week. Lots of those.
Over the course of the past year, since I have gone back to school, I have written less about my own life and far less about my practice. I've been spending a lot of time with one particular person whose company I enjoy. That closeness seems to pacify my creative energy, for better or worse. And while practicing and teaching yoga are largely solitary pursuits which leave much of my thought free for putting on the page, being in the classroom saps me dry. There are times that I yearn for that winter I spent largely unemployed, eating beans, doing nothing but practice or huddle in blankets and write.
Sometimes, when I have an interesting insight or experience on the mat, I try to write about my practice now. But it doesn't feel right. Occasionally, I have a spark of inspiration to compose a post about the best time to shower in relation to practice, the importance of refinement in jumping back, or how to bind Pasasana. But then I think: jesus, who cares...?
The truth is, I care. I ponder these trivialities every day. In my practice, or with my students. I research. I troubleshoot. I tinker. I continue to examine this yoga, this thing that sometimes seems so full of mystery and other times absurdly plain. But I've forgotten how to write about it. Maybe I don't have the energy, or maybe I don't think I should. As the nature of this blog has evolved over the years, so has the nature of my relationship to practice. It's become a comfortable relationship. An everyday relationship. One that isn't always satisfying, but one so wrapped up in who I am that it's impossible to leave. And it seems almost that whatever happens in a relationship like that is too intimate to share, too gnarly and complex for understanding.
So I don't write about my practice anymore. Don't talk much about it either. I just do it, and that's enough. Maybe this will change. I enjoy reading about others' practice once in a while, and early on I learned a lot from blogs. Maybe next week I will need notebooks for detailing my drop backs or logging meditation time, but for now, practice is enough. And where does that leave the yoga blog? Who knows. Who cares?